Stuck

I've been feeling really down more often these days. I don't know how to change it. It seems I feel more depressed than not. Like this is becoming a new normal and those moments when I am ok are the spikes. And the more I try to get out of it, the deeper I seem to sink. I feel like doing something and not moving at the same time. I want to start a new hobby but I feel held back by lack of finances. I feel unhappy but I am also happy. I need to talk to friends but a lot are unavailable. This annoys me to death but I understand that the world does not revolve around me. I also feel like I don't want to talk or see anyone. Like I just want to stay in my room, lie down, and not move. I don't know what to do. I feel like crying.